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orange_crushedMilk and honey. Rose/Ten, PG, sooo AU. This was written for the poetry challenge at ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
then_theres_us, though I wrote it too late for that. It's a continuation from Skinned knees and the fourth of july and World's fair. This came, too, from the line, "everything she did was so human."
20.
No one saw us this evening hand in hand
while the blue night dropped on the world.
Rose had looked out the window, at the air and sky that was, impossibly, whiter than the examination room walls, whiter than the pressed coats and aprons, pale and thick with clouds. Beyond the river was the city and beyond the city was the airport, and beyond the clouds was heaven, and it could wait.
He meets her in Alexandria; he's gone ahead to secure the guide and settle their arrangements. It's been six days since they saw each other last. An eternity. And so he meets her at the gangplank with that welcome wonder in his eyes, trembling like the first moths of dusk. So wary of all happiness. But she knows it is in part from the wariness that springs the joy, renewing and awake and grateful and weirdly innocent. She takes his hand again, fits his bony-strong fingers together into her thin ones and weaves them tight into whole cloth. "You promised there'd be camels," she says.
"We're by the sea," he retorts. "Camels like their liquids on the interior." He looks down at her. She remembers the safari helmet he toted around through the sixth grade; there's a shadow of it hovering over him, the chinstrap loose around his neck and sweat beading on his cheek. He's grinning and manic and eager now, in both points of her life. "Did you know, they recycle water vapor as they inhale ? And their coat-"
"Lunch first," she says, firmly. "Lunch and then the Encyclopedia Britannia, if you must."
"Practical Rose," he says. But his stomach growls under her palm when she balances herself to lean up for a kiss. She giggles into his mouth. "Hmm," he says, his eyes still comfortably half-shut. "The two of you may have a point."
They eat kofta and drink fruit juice in an open-air cafe near the old quarter and he teaches her to say please and thank-you in the local dialect. She picks it up quickly and the teenaged waiter almost blushes when it rolls off her tongue. "I should never have let you stay with Jack," her man says, watching the reactions. "He's always hovering on the border of an international incident."
"Cyprus was lovely," she says, ignoring the tone. "He took me to the theatre at Limassol." She traces the fine hair on his forearms with her fingernail. "You could see the ocean from there, too."
"Rose," he begins, and stops. He's been doing this lately. Since Rome. Since the steps at the Capitoline, when she looked out and said-
"This is my choice," she says. "Out of everything in the world, I chose this." She glares at him seriously and he smiles back, firefly happiness flickering and disappearing in his sad dark eyes, his hands wrapped around hers. They feel cooler than the air, or she feels warmer. Impossible to tell. "So you might as well show me to my camel."
"They spit," he says, mildly.
They sleep out in the desert, in a tent pinned down near scrub grass and knotted trees. Their guide is a young man with a strange sense of humor; he sings to the camels and tells them jokes, and Rose sits in the sand and watches the two men strip the saddles and packs off with careful attention. Her man sits beside her when they're finished, and unfolds the map. "Here, and here, and then there." He points at the dots. "That's Saqqara, the necropolis of the old kingdom. Then to Cairo. We'll visit the museum- an old friend of mine's a curator there- and then a suite at one of the oldest and finest hotels in the quarter."
"Mm," she says, spreading her toes in the sand.
"We could have done it by train," he says, suddenly. "Are you tired ? If you're tired-"
"I'm not." She leans towards him, kisses his shoulder, rests her head carelessly on his shoulder, breathes deep and even and slow. He relaxes. "Not at all."
She is.
"You don't have forever," they told her. They were trying to be kind. To be firm with her and her fantasies, her train tickets and plane tickets and the man in the hallway, waiting with a mangled hat in his hands and three flavors of licorice in his pockets. The candy gets the maps and notebooks sticky but he never seems to mind. He has the bad habit of licking his fingers. Rose had looked out the window, at the air and sky that was, impossibly, whiter than the examination room walls, whiter than the pressed coats and aprons, pale and thick with clouds. Beyond the river was the city and beyond the city was the airport, and beyond the clouds was heaven, and it could wait.
"Nobody does," she'd said back. She'd gone out into the hall and he'd been staring at the frame of the door, right at the spot where she emerged, waiting for his eyes and hers to meet again. He'd had such faith.
But she fears he won't have it forever.
He is fixing the hotel balcony with wire and screws when she comes back from the desk. "Just a teensy structural integrity issue," he says, apologetically, trying to hide the streaks of rust and grime on his previously-clean shirt by folding his arms. His arms are too skinny for that to really work. "Took me no time at all." He jumps up and down on the platform and the railing wobbles for a second, and holds. Rose rolls her eyes and goes into the bathroom to splash some cold water on her face- night is falling, and the temperature retreating, but the three flights of stairs didn't do her any favors. "Are you all right ?" he asks, hovering in the doorway. "Too hot ?"
"It's fine."
"You should take a nap before dinner." His hands are knotted in his pockets. His voice is suspiciously casual.
"I am fine," she says, in a low voice. It isn't going to upset her. She's perfectly alright. She doesn't look at him, but into the mirror, at the corner of the wallpaper behind her. She doesn't want to close the bathroom door but she will, just for a moment, to get that sympathetic gaze off of her back.
"We could stay in-"
"I said I'm fine," she hollers, and throws the washcloth across the room; it lands in the bathtub with a slap. He must take her at her word this time, because he puts his hands up in surrender and leaves the room, leaves the suite altogether and shuts the door behind him. Rose sits down on the edge of the tub. Her hands are wet and she rubs them on her dress; the cotton sticks to the tops of her thighs. From the open windows she can hear the sounds of laughter and the thump of a ball getting kicked in the street. She doesn't know how long she sits there like that, thinking about nothing as hard as she can, but her dress is dry by the time he comes back. He clears his throat to make her look up, and holds out his hand for her to take.
"Come upstairs," he says.
They go up to the roof: the manager has given him the key and made him promise not to do anything inappropriate in the sight of their neighbors. He tells her that with a wink and Rose wonders whether or not he crossed his fingers as he swore. There's a thick military-style blanket already laid out; he lays down on his back and pulls her down against him, cradled to his side. Up here the noises of the city are fainter, softer, a watercolor of sound melting into the atmosphere. His heartbeat is louder than the rest. "The ancient Egyptians believed in the sky goddess, Nut," he says; his voice is low and soft and she can hear it through his mouth and through the vibration of his chest in counterpoint. "The stars sailed on her belly." He points up, to a small band of stars. "That big fellow there. They called him Osiris, but do you know what the Greeks called him ?"
"Orion."
"Right on the nose." He beams at her. "They thought the gods changed people into stars to preserve them forever. And of course," he pauses, and launches into what might be an impression of their old Sunday-school teacher. "And they that be wise shall shine as the brightness of the firmament, and they that turn many to righteousness as the stars for ever and ever."
"I'm amazed you remember that."
"I memorized all the bits about stars and planets. Do you remember my telescope ? Those ratty old star charts I used to bring to your window in the middle of the night ? Your roof was hell on the undercarriage, as I recall. My mother could never understand how I got so many splinters in the seat of my pants." She remembers every second of it, just the way he tells it. The flaking paint on the sill, his impassioned whispers about the bull and the big bear and the little bear and the seven sisters. The cold air on their faces, the vastness of space and the closeness of him and the freshness still in the world. In everything. She feels a chill and it shivers up her spine, makes her draw closer and giggle for no reason. "Rose ?"
"Are you saying you'll put me in the stars ?" she murmurs. He rolls onto his side. His arm is under her head, his face so close to hers that they breathe in and out from the same pocket of air. His eyes are perfectly dark, like black lilies.
"You're already there," he says. "The brightest thing in the universe. When I look up, you're the only thing I see."
They lie in silence, her forehead pressed against his mouth. "What are you thinking about ?" he asks, after a minute. She slips her right hand around his left one, puts his ring between her thumb and forefinger and turns it a little. It goes around and around in her grip.
"I was just thinking about how I'd gotten some bad advice. I don't think I'm going to listen to it anymore."
"Good for you."
"The circle," Rose murmurs, "another symbol of eternity. Right ?"
"Yes." A grin creeps into his voice. "And pancakes. Traffic patterns. Kettle drums."
"Wagon wheels."
"Cheese."
"You think everything's a symbol of cheese."
"So I do," he says, and kisses her forehead. "So I do."
They lie in bed in the morning and miss breakfast, kissing without speaking while the sun warms up the other side of the sheets. Her legs feel warm and heavy and her eyelids are cool where he kisses them, dusting fluttering touches down her eyelashes and onto her cheeks and saving her lips for last. Everything exists in this second, she tells herself. Nothing ever really ends.
His mouth tastes like milk and honey, eretz zavat chalav u'dvash, the welcome to paradise.
then_theres_us, though I wrote it too late for that. It's a continuation from Skinned knees and the fourth of july and World's fair. This came, too, from the line, "everything she did was so human."20.
No one saw us this evening hand in hand
while the blue night dropped on the world.
Rose had looked out the window, at the air and sky that was, impossibly, whiter than the examination room walls, whiter than the pressed coats and aprons, pale and thick with clouds. Beyond the river was the city and beyond the city was the airport, and beyond the clouds was heaven, and it could wait.
He meets her in Alexandria; he's gone ahead to secure the guide and settle their arrangements. It's been six days since they saw each other last. An eternity. And so he meets her at the gangplank with that welcome wonder in his eyes, trembling like the first moths of dusk. So wary of all happiness. But she knows it is in part from the wariness that springs the joy, renewing and awake and grateful and weirdly innocent. She takes his hand again, fits his bony-strong fingers together into her thin ones and weaves them tight into whole cloth. "You promised there'd be camels," she says.
"We're by the sea," he retorts. "Camels like their liquids on the interior." He looks down at her. She remembers the safari helmet he toted around through the sixth grade; there's a shadow of it hovering over him, the chinstrap loose around his neck and sweat beading on his cheek. He's grinning and manic and eager now, in both points of her life. "Did you know, they recycle water vapor as they inhale ? And their coat-"
"Lunch first," she says, firmly. "Lunch and then the Encyclopedia Britannia, if you must."
"Practical Rose," he says. But his stomach growls under her palm when she balances herself to lean up for a kiss. She giggles into his mouth. "Hmm," he says, his eyes still comfortably half-shut. "The two of you may have a point."
They eat kofta and drink fruit juice in an open-air cafe near the old quarter and he teaches her to say please and thank-you in the local dialect. She picks it up quickly and the teenaged waiter almost blushes when it rolls off her tongue. "I should never have let you stay with Jack," her man says, watching the reactions. "He's always hovering on the border of an international incident."
"Cyprus was lovely," she says, ignoring the tone. "He took me to the theatre at Limassol." She traces the fine hair on his forearms with her fingernail. "You could see the ocean from there, too."
"Rose," he begins, and stops. He's been doing this lately. Since Rome. Since the steps at the Capitoline, when she looked out and said-
"This is my choice," she says. "Out of everything in the world, I chose this." She glares at him seriously and he smiles back, firefly happiness flickering and disappearing in his sad dark eyes, his hands wrapped around hers. They feel cooler than the air, or she feels warmer. Impossible to tell. "So you might as well show me to my camel."
"They spit," he says, mildly.
They sleep out in the desert, in a tent pinned down near scrub grass and knotted trees. Their guide is a young man with a strange sense of humor; he sings to the camels and tells them jokes, and Rose sits in the sand and watches the two men strip the saddles and packs off with careful attention. Her man sits beside her when they're finished, and unfolds the map. "Here, and here, and then there." He points at the dots. "That's Saqqara, the necropolis of the old kingdom. Then to Cairo. We'll visit the museum- an old friend of mine's a curator there- and then a suite at one of the oldest and finest hotels in the quarter."
"Mm," she says, spreading her toes in the sand.
"We could have done it by train," he says, suddenly. "Are you tired ? If you're tired-"
"I'm not." She leans towards him, kisses his shoulder, rests her head carelessly on his shoulder, breathes deep and even and slow. He relaxes. "Not at all."
She is.
"You don't have forever," they told her. They were trying to be kind. To be firm with her and her fantasies, her train tickets and plane tickets and the man in the hallway, waiting with a mangled hat in his hands and three flavors of licorice in his pockets. The candy gets the maps and notebooks sticky but he never seems to mind. He has the bad habit of licking his fingers. Rose had looked out the window, at the air and sky that was, impossibly, whiter than the examination room walls, whiter than the pressed coats and aprons, pale and thick with clouds. Beyond the river was the city and beyond the city was the airport, and beyond the clouds was heaven, and it could wait.
"Nobody does," she'd said back. She'd gone out into the hall and he'd been staring at the frame of the door, right at the spot where she emerged, waiting for his eyes and hers to meet again. He'd had such faith.
But she fears he won't have it forever.
He is fixing the hotel balcony with wire and screws when she comes back from the desk. "Just a teensy structural integrity issue," he says, apologetically, trying to hide the streaks of rust and grime on his previously-clean shirt by folding his arms. His arms are too skinny for that to really work. "Took me no time at all." He jumps up and down on the platform and the railing wobbles for a second, and holds. Rose rolls her eyes and goes into the bathroom to splash some cold water on her face- night is falling, and the temperature retreating, but the three flights of stairs didn't do her any favors. "Are you all right ?" he asks, hovering in the doorway. "Too hot ?"
"It's fine."
"You should take a nap before dinner." His hands are knotted in his pockets. His voice is suspiciously casual.
"I am fine," she says, in a low voice. It isn't going to upset her. She's perfectly alright. She doesn't look at him, but into the mirror, at the corner of the wallpaper behind her. She doesn't want to close the bathroom door but she will, just for a moment, to get that sympathetic gaze off of her back.
"We could stay in-"
"I said I'm fine," she hollers, and throws the washcloth across the room; it lands in the bathtub with a slap. He must take her at her word this time, because he puts his hands up in surrender and leaves the room, leaves the suite altogether and shuts the door behind him. Rose sits down on the edge of the tub. Her hands are wet and she rubs them on her dress; the cotton sticks to the tops of her thighs. From the open windows she can hear the sounds of laughter and the thump of a ball getting kicked in the street. She doesn't know how long she sits there like that, thinking about nothing as hard as she can, but her dress is dry by the time he comes back. He clears his throat to make her look up, and holds out his hand for her to take.
"Come upstairs," he says.
They go up to the roof: the manager has given him the key and made him promise not to do anything inappropriate in the sight of their neighbors. He tells her that with a wink and Rose wonders whether or not he crossed his fingers as he swore. There's a thick military-style blanket already laid out; he lays down on his back and pulls her down against him, cradled to his side. Up here the noises of the city are fainter, softer, a watercolor of sound melting into the atmosphere. His heartbeat is louder than the rest. "The ancient Egyptians believed in the sky goddess, Nut," he says; his voice is low and soft and she can hear it through his mouth and through the vibration of his chest in counterpoint. "The stars sailed on her belly." He points up, to a small band of stars. "That big fellow there. They called him Osiris, but do you know what the Greeks called him ?"
"Orion."
"Right on the nose." He beams at her. "They thought the gods changed people into stars to preserve them forever. And of course," he pauses, and launches into what might be an impression of their old Sunday-school teacher. "And they that be wise shall shine as the brightness of the firmament, and they that turn many to righteousness as the stars for ever and ever."
"I'm amazed you remember that."
"I memorized all the bits about stars and planets. Do you remember my telescope ? Those ratty old star charts I used to bring to your window in the middle of the night ? Your roof was hell on the undercarriage, as I recall. My mother could never understand how I got so many splinters in the seat of my pants." She remembers every second of it, just the way he tells it. The flaking paint on the sill, his impassioned whispers about the bull and the big bear and the little bear and the seven sisters. The cold air on their faces, the vastness of space and the closeness of him and the freshness still in the world. In everything. She feels a chill and it shivers up her spine, makes her draw closer and giggle for no reason. "Rose ?"
"Are you saying you'll put me in the stars ?" she murmurs. He rolls onto his side. His arm is under her head, his face so close to hers that they breathe in and out from the same pocket of air. His eyes are perfectly dark, like black lilies.
"You're already there," he says. "The brightest thing in the universe. When I look up, you're the only thing I see."
They lie in silence, her forehead pressed against his mouth. "What are you thinking about ?" he asks, after a minute. She slips her right hand around his left one, puts his ring between her thumb and forefinger and turns it a little. It goes around and around in her grip.
"I was just thinking about how I'd gotten some bad advice. I don't think I'm going to listen to it anymore."
"Good for you."
"The circle," Rose murmurs, "another symbol of eternity. Right ?"
"Yes." A grin creeps into his voice. "And pancakes. Traffic patterns. Kettle drums."
"Wagon wheels."
"Cheese."
"You think everything's a symbol of cheese."
"So I do," he says, and kisses her forehead. "So I do."
They lie in bed in the morning and miss breakfast, kissing without speaking while the sun warms up the other side of the sheets. Her legs feel warm and heavy and her eyelids are cool where he kisses them, dusting fluttering touches down her eyelashes and onto her cheeks and saving her lips for last. Everything exists in this second, she tells herself. Nothing ever really ends.
His mouth tastes like milk and honey, eretz zavat chalav u'dvash, the welcome to paradise.
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Date: Tuesday, November 3rd, 2009 08:01 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: Wednesday, November 4th, 2009 01:02 am (UTC)Really, the best possible compliment. <3 You're lovely.
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Date: Tuesday, November 3rd, 2009 08:45 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: Wednesday, November 4th, 2009 01:01 am (UTC)<3
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Date: Tuesday, November 3rd, 2009 11:19 pm (UTC)I'd quote my favourite parts, but I'm afraid I'd have to copy and paste the entire fic.
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Date: Wednesday, November 4th, 2009 01:07 am (UTC)There's really no way to convey this online, but getting a response like yours is thrilling. You always want to believe that something you write could reach out to someone. <3
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Date: Tuesday, November 3rd, 2009 11:47 pm (UTC)You have such a deft hand with keeping a balance between the ephemeral and the real. Your poetic description never gets too hazy because there’s always something like a washcloth slapping in the bathtub or sticky pockets of licorice to pin it down.
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Date: Wednesday, November 4th, 2009 01:08 am (UTC)Thank you so very much for this.
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Date: Wednesday, November 4th, 2009 12:20 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: Wednesday, November 4th, 2009 12:58 am (UTC)Don't cry! MOAR CUPCAKES, LESS TRAGIC ILLNESS, OBVIOUSLY. WHAT HAVE I DONE. D:
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Date: Wednesday, November 4th, 2009 01:26 am (UTC)Or this story has been affecting me too much.
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Date: Thursday, November 5th, 2009 04:29 pm (UTC)I still can't call him the Doctor, though it is him, and it isn't. I just can't, and I don't feel like I have to, but- okay, now I'm too affected by this. XD
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Date: Wednesday, November 4th, 2009 12:29 am (UTC)'Cause I was so totally thrilled that you wrote more of this amazing universe. And then... when they're both human and in an AU universe, even then Rose is still being taken away from him.
*bawls*
It is so beautiful, though... so surreal and yet so vivid and heartfelt. And I love the scene up on the rooftop. *sighhhh* ♥
*tries very hard not to tear up*
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Date: Wednesday, November 4th, 2009 01:01 am (UTC)There's something about the Doctor and Rose, though... laughing and loving in spite of the fact that they know the end has to come. I wanted to capture a little of that. Don't cry, I'm sorry! They're riding camels now, it's totally fine!
<3
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Date: Wednesday, November 4th, 2009 12:43 am (UTC)Can I say how much I TOTALLY ADORE this AU? Somehow you can write The Doctor and Rose in this universe without losing any of their mannerisms. I love the fic so, so much. NEVER STOP, BB. ♥
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Date: Wednesday, November 4th, 2009 01:09 am (UTC)I will never stop. If only to please you. <3 <3 <3
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Date: Wednesday, November 4th, 2009 01:37 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: Wednesday, November 4th, 2009 02:36 am (UTC)And I love the repetition of "her man."
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Date: Thursday, November 5th, 2009 04:31 pm (UTC)I'm so glad you liked the "her man" thing. It was extremely hard to figure out what to call him, because I just can't call him the Doctor, even though it's clearly him. It worked for me, because he really is hers, especially in this world.
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Date: Monday, November 9th, 2009 02:58 am (UTC)no subject
Date: Saturday, November 14th, 2009 03:48 am (UTC)Oh, I couldn't be happier. I am your little wizard. Just imagine me in a robe and hat with stars on it. <3 <3 <3
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Date: Friday, November 20th, 2009 08:55 am (UTC)But I won't ever stop loving this verse. ♥ ♥
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Date: Sunday, November 22nd, 2009 06:05 am (UTC)no subject
Date: Monday, November 23rd, 2009 01:49 am (UTC)*LOVES* like always. This AU is the bestest best thing ever.
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Date: Thursday, November 26th, 2009 08:32 am (UTC)ohohoh. I'm so happy to see this 'verse lives on. The characters are so very much the Doctor and Rose, earthbound or no, and it's beautiful to see them finding meaning in the stars like always. I liked the allusions to different concepts of eternity, and I've always loved that verse from Daniel. One of the best things about Ten/Rose is the way she's brave in ways he never can be; she has a strength that I think he can only marvel at, and you really showed that here. This was very moving, and like so much of your writing, it only improves upon re-reading. :)
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Date: Sunday, February 14th, 2010 04:17 pm (UTC)I'm incredibly impressed with how well you've incorporated the tragedy of the Doctor and Rose's romance into the plot as well--she can spend the rest of her life with him, but he can't spend the rest of his with her. Yet the way they seem to have accepted this fate and continue living is so...them. I loved the entire scene on the roof, because you get the sense that it's something they don't mention directly, but they're trying to let all the important things be said in whatever time they have left together. And oh gosh, though he doesn't show it, you can feel his anguish. Just thinking about what losing her will do to him is making me feel all teary-eyed T_T. I love when a fic can do that to me.
Random sidenote:I was listening to the Turin Brakes song New Star while reading this, and its melody at least seemed to fit well with the emotion of this chapter.
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Date: Thursday, February 18th, 2010 01:13 pm (UTC)I love the Doctor and Rose so... I don't know why I couldn't give them cookies and sunshine and rainbows. XD But there is something precious about their relationship in the show, the way it was always going to end, and the fact that they stuck with it anyway. So I'm happy you thought it worked here.
THAT SONG IS AWESOME, I am going to do the same thing, read and listen. Oooh.